To me, this piece is very personal to me because this was my first sketch I had managed to do after my Dad has passed away. It's The Doctor holding my fursona, Chao, in a comforting embrace. I have written a bit of dialogue to go with this piece and whether or not you choose to read it doesn't matter to me. I just wanted to share this very personal sketch now that I'm slowly (yet surely) recovering using my artwork to cope.
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The lioness cried & cried what seemed like endless tears, the Doctor holding her tightly, letting her sob quietly. She felt lost... confused... angry... but most of all, alone. Even though she had many who comforted her & would support her, it still did not heal the gaping wound in her heart that her father was now gone. The Doctor sighed and held her close as he was going to try to comfort the grief-struck feline.
"I'm sorry...I'm so sorry." He spoke solemnly.
"But Doctor, why?... Why couldn't he have held on just a little longer?" Chao sobbed, clenching her eyes, wishing she could stop these tears from flowing constantly.
"Would you really wish that on your ole' dad? Your best friend?" The Doctor asked her, a hint of shock in his tone.
"...I don't understand. Why wouldn't I?" She looked up into his brown eyes, lost & confused, blinking as more tears streamed down her cheeks.
"I'm old enough to know that a longer life isn't always a better one. In the end, you just get tired; tired of the struggle..." He spoke, years and years of experience behind his words. The kind of words that can only come from a being that has seen many things and lost many loved ones, and couldn't do a single thing about it.
"..." Her silence, though momentary, was a profound realization. Chao leaned her head in once more to seek comfort in his hug, listening to the gentle beatings of his hearts.
"Your dad was in so much pain, cub. Think about it. How many times did you watch him attempt to lift a cup of his favorite coffee, but he couldn't... You know he loved doing his projects outside, in the warm sunshine, but he didn't have the strength to get out of the bed anymore. Would you have wished one more minute of that suffering and pain upon someone you love?" The Doctor, though not chastising, was stern in his questioning, trying to make her truly understand what she was wishing for the lost loved one.
"...No, Doctor. Not at all... It just still hurts." The lioness sobbed, trying to wipe the tears from her eyes as she slowly began to understand the wise traveler's words.
"I know... And it always will. But don't ever forget one thing, just one thing, dear... He will always be watching you from the stars, and I know he's so very proud of you and will always love you, as you loved him." He replied softly, tilting her chin up to look into her tear stained eyes.
"Heh, yeah. That's very true, Doctor..." Chao spoke, closing her eyes as a flood of memories clouded her mind, remembering the best moments from the time she was a wee little thing growing up, the glorious day of her wedding as he proudly walked her down the aisle, to being there in his final days watching his favorite show, "MoonShiners."
"Your ole' man had a lot of skeletons in his past, believe me, I know, and when he told you about them when you were just a wee lass, he was so scared, terrified even, that you would reject him... but you didn't care because he's your dad and you told him the past didn't matter to you. You told him just so long as he would never stop loving you, none of it mattered. And that, mate, is something every father needs to hear from his beloved children." As the Doctor looked into the lioness's eyes, his dimples began to show a little as a soft & caring smile crept across his lips.
She smiled softly, her heart still heavy with grief but at the same time, a sensation of realization and comfort washed over her soul as she looked into the Doctor's eyes, finally understanding, and finally feeling the first sensations of healing & her heart swelling, no longer feeling as empty as it once was.
"Thank you, Doctor... Thank you so much. I will never forget your words..." Chao spoke in a gentle whisper, giving him one last & the tightest hug she could, as she knew he had to be on his way soon and knowing this would probably the last time she saw him again...
10th Doctor, David Tennant © Doctor Who
Chao © Me